For Paula.....

I have been trying to write this for a few days but I haven't been sure what to write or if I even have the right to touch on someone else's loss and pain. I decided that I really want to honor a beautiful boy that I hardly even knew. I did know his Mother Paula though...I met her when my son Jake was attending The Oakland Steiner Waldorf School in Rochester Hills. She was always kind to me and she ended up putting me in contact with her sister who had a summer rental cottage in Lexington. We ended up renting that cottage and spent some wonderful family time there. Actually it is there on that beach in the beach grass that I took my favorite photo of my own son and it has been the cover photo for this blog ever since. In March of 2012 I had heard her 11 year old son was ill and fighting cancer. It was hard to imagine what they must be going through...actually no... it was easy to imagine but something that I did not want to imagine...it made my heart ache for her. I just wanted to let her know that I was thinking of her and praying for Konrad every night, So I started to send her some messages not knowing if she was even getting them or not. I kept thinking...he will beat this!! A few months later, It was May 1st, I remember I was looking at photos from that day's May Day festival at Oakland Steiner, seeing all of those beautiful faces, crown's of flowers and missing old friends. I heard that Konrad was back in the hospital with a fever, possible infection and on an intubator. I remember reading that he was trying to sit up so I thought, he will be fine, he will probably be home in a few days. I sent out many prayers and healing thoughts for them that night. The next morning I got up and sat down in front of my computer to check my e-mails as usual and opened a message from a mutual friend....Konrad had passed away during the night....I just remember putting my hands over my my face in shock. I could not wrap my mind around that information. My heart broke for Paula and her family. I just kept thinking about Paula and as a Mother what she must be going through. Over this past year I think about her every day and about how this has changed her life forever. I continue to send healing prayers and comfort to her and her family. One year ago on May 2, 2012 a beautiful boy named Konrad passed away after a courageous battle with cancer. I originally posted a message on my blog called Only Love Matters about that day. I want his Mother Paula to know how much her son has touched my heart in so many ways....I think that is what he came here to do for so many people...to touch their hearts and teach them about love and courage. Today I honor and remember a very brave boy and his brave family.

~Much love to you.